Do they make you feel like you're not good enough for them because they unconsciously don't feel good enough for you?

2022.01.26 14:58 Tricky-Mission3964 Do they make you feel like you're not good enough for them because they unconsciously don't feel good enough for you?

I am at a week NC with my ex. I have gone back after his mistreatment many times, always at about a week, so I am posting here for answers instead of texting him and opening myself up to the barrage of cruelty I know he will sling back at me, because it's what he's always done until I grovel and apologize and he takes me back. I can't do it again. It was killing me to stay. I was ready to kill myself. It's also killing me to be gone. The possibility he never loved me at all is agonizing and it also feels impossible to be true because it's like he went from working overtime to be together at some points, to completely cutting me down, hitting me, throwing me out of our apartment, etc.
We are foreigners working in an Asian country. It can be very hard out here to date unless you're looking for a hookup or have a yellow fever thing. We never cheated on eachother. I don't feel I ever did anything that warranted his cruelty of me. And by the end I became so angry and cruel in return. I was crying so much. I hit him back. I hated him. He knew I'd been abused in the past and said he wanted to become my worst nightmare. Other times he said I deserved much better than I had received in my past.
I really feel he has no empathy. He thinks my crying is manipulations. He thinks me leaving him is manipulations, and not that I'm genuinely dying inside and outside. He always thinks I'm lying or hiding something but I was literally spending all of my time with him. We're only in our late twenties. Our last fight was because I asked, demanded, that he be nicer to me. The verbal abuse started to just make me cry immediately. I have no defenses anymore. I used to be stronger against it. I'm crushed now. I'm staying in my friend's guest room. He's accused me before of only wanting the apartment. All I wanted was my little life with someone who wasn't going to rip me apart all the time. In his anger he said it wasn't "our home". It was "his home".
He gave me a "last chance" before I left last time, after two days of attacking me in everyway, suddenly kissing me and saying "unpack your things and prove me wrong about you." But prove what wrong? What did a girl who loves you do to deserve all of this?
I know he doesn't want random sex flings, he wants a real life. So I don't know why this has happened. I know he was always very insecure about me having "options" or divorcing him in the future or doing something to fuck him over. But I don't actually know why. I've always been fucked over in the past. Everyone else in my life thinks I'm very kind, maybe too kind. I never demanded anything outrageous of him. Very typical girlfriend things. I admit I am a tiger if someone treats me badly. And I am prone to depression, especially with the world like it is right now.
I don't want to feel like a victim but I do. I'm homeless right now. My boyfriend has ripped apart my self esteem, hit me, left me crying in a guest bedroom across the city. I can't think of what woman he thinks is out there that is perfect and will also accept how overbearing he is. Why would you throw away someone who loves you and has put up with so much, who would've travelled the world with you, just to be alone and angry?
I'm sorry for the rant. I do want to understand. I feel like he's had some kind of breakdown. He doesn't even look the same as when we dated a year ago. And he blames me for that too.
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